On 23rd Of Nov,My grandpa is admitted into da hospital so spend the whole time at home,alone.But wif computer & my dogs...

On 24th,I went 2 visit grandpa since he's gonna do chemotheraphy in da night....Went on9 den read through books.Called in 2a.m, that grandpa has done his chemo~Yipee...Dun nid 2 worry sooooo much anymore but still nid 2 take precaution

On 25th,grandpa is out of hospital.B4 fetching him,me & my dad prepared lunch for them sooooo yummy~Went there about 2.30,gotten some problem coz  grandpa's blue notebook is stil wif doctor & still nid 2 wait 2 get his medicine>Damn many people dat day....On the way home,dad kept on scolding the doctor...."Hey man,grandpa juz did his chemo so nobody should anger him"Juz thse few words & he scold me lyk mad...Din talk to him da whole day~

On 26th,do nothing juz stayed at home & on9 da whole day...Mum went out till late night so I juz wait 4 her 2 open da gate...Swt rite?So now I own a pair of 'panda' eyes....T_T

On 27th,Woke up late since mum is on holiday....Stayed at home helping mum with her fb & some reports....Tired lo!~

On 28th,my paternal grandma came & visit my grandpa along wif my youngest aunt & dad...Unfortunately my aunt is having difficulties wif money so we kinda avoid talking about business or $$...Mum came home late so she gave excuse of buying groceries...Luckily I saved the day or dad will b angered again...

Today,suckz man....Dad is here & no computers are allowed to be on....At lunch,he makes his face again but I dun mind coz I think he's stressed over his work...Din talk 2 him a lot coz he's resting even my mum ask me 2 ask whether wanna go 4 shopping,I oso dun wan...Take a long nap dis afternoon...Ltr dad gave permit 2 come on9...Yahoo~Juz get 2 eat porridge coz grandpa insist it....Pity me~

On Friday,I skipped skul...Followed my grandpa 2 da hospital & I'm free 2 go on9,shopping & goin out wif frenz~In the end,I went 4 a wedding dinner & a bday party in 1 shot...Had fun but tired....Reached home at about 1.30a.m.~

On Saturday,woke up late but decided 2 go Qbay 4 shopping 4 clothes...Got a few nice oufit den bought magazine & dvds...Went home at around 7~Ltr at nite went on9 till 1++

Today,woke up early 2 go 4 da Penang Bridge Marathon!!!Heck man...My mum got tired so we went back halfway~"I still haven't finish mine yet...Not fair!!!"Den dad came and went 2 PISA!!!
Doze off at 3 & awoke at 8....No 1 wake me up...Had dinner while on9ing...till 2 in da morning~N tmrw follwing grandpa 4 chemotheraphy at 10~How am I gonna stay awake???

On 17th...Shiro is absent frm skul so juz left me with Yeh Yeh,Yinn Yinn and Mel~We talked a lot and laugh a lot...Pity Shiro coz she nids 2 clean up after moving to a condo...I wish I could help her~

On 18th,Shiro finali came~everyday juz busy signing da magazines or juz chat along coz Mel is leaving tmrw~I dun wan her 2 go...I'm gonna miz her soooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!

Today...Freak out coz I nid 2 finish 4 peka's 4 3 sciences....Bio & Phy finished b4 recess den helped tcher wif da gifts till last 2 periods...Chemistry was fun but sad coz Mel is leaving 2day but she says dat she
'll drop by once a while here...Yay~
N tmrw not going 2 skul....Holiday oledi....Lol~xdd....

U-know~Life sucks 2day coz I got wat I want but I still feel unsatisfied~
Done nothing at skul,juz crapping & copy stuffs 4 Chemistry...

Went home earlier by 10 minutes coz dad has sumthing 2 do but in da end,we ended up quarrelling but it wasn't me who started it,it's him...Scolding about me,"U'r such a sickening child coz after you're born,nothing gud has ever happen & ur results is frm bad 2 worst..."...den came a complain about mum, & my grandparents...Grr~I juz said,I dun have cloths at another house so I might be lending frm my cousin~Lyk dat oso wanna scold....

Dump me in my grandparents house...Find a way in myself...Spending my time,CRYINGbut it really hurts me mentally and stabbed through my heart...If you hated me soo much den disown me coz I never think dat I'm a perfect child to you~Waited 4 grandma home 4 lunch although had 1 b4 dat....
A deep secret had always being burried in my heart is I tried 2 commit suicide numerous times but it didn't succeed coz I felt it's not worth it...Well,I mean I still haven't really seen the world so it's such a waste to die b4 you can explore it~but the desire is still there...

On Friday,went 2 skul & we're all busy signing each others magazine till our 'tangan patah'...Went back early den juz study den on9~Ltr at nite,juz play PS2...till 12

On Saturday,juz woke up den prepare myself 4 da day b4 goin out 4 lunch den came home...Had dinner & taught my grandma play PS2...She's so fast learner coz she beat me in the 1st round without my guidance...went on9 till late nite!!!!

Today woke up at 10.30.watch tv den bathe b4 going out 4 lunch...Felt bloated den came home den on9 again....coz 2nite goin 4 wedding dinner~

On  Wednesday,in skul...done nothing xcept having History class 4 periods straight...Cun even get a single thing into my brain...Luckily halfway,BM tcher wants us to do 'lisan'...Get2 skip 4 a while...
Den A.Maths,tcher was furious coz she expected 100% attandence~Finished the syllabus~Yahoo~ended up in English class,chatting bout songs & artists...Went back home & did a few exercises den on9 at around 4...
Mum came home 4 dinner but in da end I slept at 1++ coz mum asked me to help her in her work so gotta obey

Today,I ended up being absent frm skul coz sleepy & mum woke up at 7 so skip skul lo~Done exercises on A.Maths,Maths & Science....Went on9 at 3.00~

On 9th of November,I was feeling not going 2 skul but den I nid 2 get my results 'mana tau' din get & Shiro isn't present~coz body ache after camp...Did nothing,juz listen in class 4 bio den free 4 da 4 whole periods...Went back early den juz revise through my notes

Today,holy crap~Results is out & luckily I get top 20 or else I'll be killed by my mum~But my marks are not really outstanding...T_T

After recess,helped tcher den went back 2 class at the last period.Luckily my English tcher din scold me.Chat wif Mel,Shiro,Baba,Yeh Yeh & Yinn~Den on the way home,informed my dad about my results,he gave me a sour expression......Went on9 & do A.Maths hmwork~Played wif my dogs

On Saturday,I was lyk in a big mess coz every1 wanna use da laptop..."NO WAY!!!".Then waited 4 mum 4 dinner...Done nothing xcept on9 & getting pissed~

Today,was lyk a sleepy & sneezy day 4 me.Bath my dogs then went out 4 lunch & 'lepak' ath New World Park wif my cousins~In da afternoon,juz scan through my notes & stories.Went 2 Tesco...Dang~ it'z raining heavily...Had Mc-Flurry 4 dinner den on9~Prepare 4 skul tmrw~Wonder how'z tcher's reaction on laz Friday...^_^How's Shiro & Minase & Tao-i & every1 who went 2 da camp???

Lookz lyk I haven't update my blog 4 a while.Let'z start frm November 3rd,I wasn't present at skul dat day due 2 certain condition...Ok,I admit dat I went on9 although my body was weak!!!

November 4th,I wanna break da hell outta here coz my mum was da 1 saying dat "You may not wanna go 2 skul!!!"this sentence came out from her 'killing mouth' which always says "You beta b present & not absent from skul.If I noe dat,you'r done 4 it!".Den she make me skip skul coz I haven't recovered from my fever...Sacarstically,I strained my head juz 2 check my mails & play on9 games on da comp...Swt~

November 5th was lyk a freak out day 4 my family while my pissed off day coz they quarrel 4 no reasons & making me joining them 2~WTH???I'm innocent here!!!And  I dunno wat da heck they'r complaining or dissatisfied about...Well,they have wat they want compared 2 me "You cun buy dis,you cun do dat"who's always ordered here

November 5th,I was forced 2 follow my grandma 2 da hospital 2 visit my grandpa~Luckily I have my laptop by my side,I guess it's true I cun live without it...Ok,I went back home b4 picking grandpa up coz he's gonna b discharged den admitted in again on da 23rd...Wat a headache???Tried 2 update wat happened at skul & it was shocking coz students in my class disappeared....Late at nite,mum went out 4 supper wif frenz & I have my freedom 2 go on9 till early morning with a condition dat I nid 2 help her bathe our dogs tomorrow morning(so cruel but ok la~)>

I was late 4 skul tis morning...After assembly,we got our Bio paper 1 & 2 marks den BM 2....Recess,did nothing juz eat den walk back 2 class....A.maths juz learn Chap 10 den 4 Chem,marks is out!!!Luckily I passed...

Back home juz ate chicken & broth~Feeling tired so have a nap...

Woke up den went on9...This part I hate da most coz my dad nags...Y he oways nags on me not my younger cousin sis?She's da most bothering 1 compared 2 me...Ok,I went on9 these few dayz but 4 a short period onli,k...Not da whole day!!!THEY DUN UNDERDTAND ME!!!!T_T

2day was a bez day 4 me 4 a new start but it didn't went well as I wanted coz my parents having a 'cold war' among themselves & over my grandparents 2~

In da morning,I have 2 stay wif my mum alone coz my dad went 2 Sungai Petani,Kedah & my grandma went 2 visit+accompany my grandpa in da hospital...So get my butt up & busily getting my 3 poddles 4 their baths+groom~Beng tired also is da worst thing 4 a girl lyk me...

Sort of coz having a stomach spam,get scolding frm mum....etc,At about 3,we went & fetch grandma but when we stop by 2 buy some snack 4 tea,the scolding starts again & I'm the involuntary victim...After fecthing grandma,went b2 buy some fruits...Not 2 mention next thing 2 happen is being slapped & pinched by my mum...Ok,this isn't da 1st time coz few years back,she even hit my head against the hard wall...

After reaching home,door 'SLAMMED'...& I burst out in tears in my room till I slept...Unconciously,I woke up lyk an hour late(7.00),mum can pretand as if nothing had happened tis afternoon...Wat a jerk???She dun even care about my feelings/emotions...T_T

Later about 8,dad & mum went 2 da hospital den came back at 10.??...Surely wif sum balck faces/bad messages imprinted on it...Den went on9 since I hvn't done so in da noon...Wat a life I have?Being da only child is fun but bear a heavy burden,responsible & how 2 make every1 happy by being a victim urself....Unfair!!!!!!!!!

I wished dat I have sum1 beside me 2 b hugged....Besides my teddy,I dun have any1 else knowing how I feel & hurt inside behind my fake smile....